Hi
Yeah, Went to Warped Tour yesterday with Tim, Kerri and Sra. It was really great, it was cool moshing to MxPx and Good Charolette, NFG and Goldfinger, etc. It was really sunny though, and I got a tad burnt, but I think it will turn into a nice tan if I'm careful so all is good.
Today I went down to Kitchener and bought some clothes for the fall. Talked to some people today, sorta got the impression that they really didn't want to talk to me, but oh well, sometimes people just don't feel like talking on the phone I guess and shouldn't be reflected as a personal thing.
So, everyone who gets to go to the beach tomorrow should feel lucky, cuz I'll be stuck inside a boring office building doing shit all, wasting my diminishing summer *sigh*, well, have fun.
I'm going to go to bed now, cuz I want to sleep, bye.
Sunday, August 18, 2002
09:07 p.m.
~And softly, the limbo, between high school and the world beyond, that is summer is slowly coming to its end, and oh gawd, I wish that someone could just say to me,
"Jordan, fear not creature, for the future will be bright for you, and you will be happy, everything is going to be alright..."
Where is my false prophet to tell me this?!
Where are you Janus?!
Good weekend everyone. And I want everyone to get around to listening to a performance of "Unchained Melody" sung by Bono, it is moving. *Tears*
Ciao
Sunday, August 11, 2002
09:18 p.m.
Yeah, so I faithfully took this little wing quiz, and apparently I'm an angel wing. Cool.
Monday, August 5, 2002
11:05 p.m.
'What kind of Wing are you?' by. Xera
Monday, August 5, 2002
11:04 p.m.
I have this incredible, sensitive, amazingly wonderful girlfriend that makes me feel so good inside. I can't fully express how lucky I am to be wtih her. Simply put, she makes life all the more sweeter to me, and for that I thank her.
Saturday, July 27, 2002
12:57 a.m.
You've got ways
To take hold of my thoughts
Over-riding my senses
Lock your sights
Dead in line with your heart
Share your powers
You stir my soul
And whet my hunger
And weave that spell
That pulls me under
These moonlight desires
Haunt me
They want me, they want me
These moonlight desires
Haunt me
You're sending, you're sending
Secret fires
Burn inside me unknown
Raging on
Never mentionned
Only you
Can uncover the flames
Break their silence
And make them dance
For us to see them
And break their chains
And give them freedom
These moonlight desires
Haunt me
They want me, they want me
These moonlight desires
Haunt me
You're sending, you're sending
A wave over my mind
And I fall to it blind
You say,
Trust me
Moonlight Desires
Oh Gowan, you so knew how to say it. *sigh* :)
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
08:08 p.m.
"Now is the Winter, of our discontent..."
Ah yes, tonight I went with my dad to see Richard III, it was good, a little silly though, they really made Richard III overplay him being a criple, and a drunk, which greatly took away from the horrible actions he commited. Neverless it was a good performance.
How was everyone's day? Mine was very boring, I wish I worked when everyone else does, cuz having weekends off just plain sucks when the people you wanna hang with have to work, poo. :(
But...we must make do with what we can, right? Enjoy each and every moment we get together? I say yes!
Well, I'm writing in my pita, cuz I came on the comp. right now, (its been defraging alllll day, which takes a lifetime!) and I'm reading a couple pita pages, and I can't help but think: "WTH is going on?" Did I miss something? Did something happen recently that I'm unaware of? It just seems like a few people are really showing that they are feeling bad right now. If anyone needs someone to talk to about anything, I'm here to listen, your personal feelings are safe with me, thats a garantee.
So, I guess I prob. won't see much of anyone tomorrow, so...I guess I'll see ya all on monday for Roxy's bday partay. Later days Amigos.
Ciao
Sunday, July 21, 2002
12:41 a.m.
Hey there,
Another typical day in the office, I wish I was at the beach. Hung out with Erin, Jess, and Tim last night. We watched a really interesting movie called "Session 9", a thriller about "inner voices" and a creepy asylum that we found out actually exists and was closed in 1982. Freaky.
Yeah, so I had a conversation today that made me think, and I've come to the conclusion that I want to voice my opinion about something. Here it goes:
It is really starting to bug me when I hear that people continue to meddle with stuff between Erin and myself. I say meddle, because it is my personal opinion and WISHES, that you don't keep asking a certain someone whether they're having sex or doing whatever with their special other. I don't like it, I think its rude and that its none of your business. That stuff is private, personal stuff that I definitely wouldn't just tell anyone. And I know I'm not "off" on this one, my best friends (the guys who are actually mature) would agree with me that a friendly conversation between two friends gets to a certain point when "people" shouldn't be inquiring how far two people have taken their relationship, because its OUR business.
It just bugs me how immature and nosy people are sometimes. Here is my messege to those people: If you ever asked me special stuff like that, I wouldn't tell you unless I was absolutely sure my girlfriend was comfortable with people knowing, and even then I might not care to. I think this is a big reason why nobody ever tries to meddle by asking ME stuff, cuz they know I respect those special things to much, and thats why I'm always hearing that people ask Erin those questions.
Food for thought people, thats all I'm saying, have some decency. If I have in any way outspoken on my part, I apoligize, I just keep getting this impression when I'm told people are asking whether I've done things or not, I just wonder why, if people are always asking Erin these things, why they never ask me? Well, I'm sure everything is cool and there's nothing to worry about, later days people.
Ciao
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
08:10 p.m.
Boring saturday. Helped my nana with anniversary invitations for their 50th. Enjoyed a bit of the outdoors. Nothing much less. Gonna watch some good movies tonight. Oh! Last night, Erin, Jess, Tim and I went up to Grand Bend. It was fun, dark out, we walked along the beach and watched the moon set. Yes! Apparently the moon does set for some reason which is cool, it gets all red in color and then just disappears. Then we walked up and down the strip, gots some fries and took in the lovely yet ethically "loose" environment of the Bend. :)
Summer sure is going quickly though. Soon I'll be doing things to get ready for school, as sad as that sounds.
On a darker yet somewhat silly note: To a certain person: I have a brick/moltov cocktail with your name on it, so come and get it!! >:) mwha ha ha hah hahha! ahem. 'cuse me.
Well, laters ppl, oh, and listen to "By the way", its a good song.
Ciao.
Saturday, July 13, 2002
08:49 p.m.
Its dark out now, the day is done. This house is quiet, only I am awake. I'm Bored.
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
09:51 p.m.
Ves wou, Ves wou,
here I lie,
quiet and still,
the silence plays its masterpiece,
the darkness, its show
nothing more to learn,
for what I need, I know.
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
09:38 p.m.
Hey Everyone,
Well it was a good weekend! I got to do some swimming, watched some movies and enjoyed some sun, it was great. Right now I'm listening to some Bouncing Souls (thanks Tim), they've got a good sound, and I'd say to any person: d/l "A Song for Everyone" by Fenix Tx, it is such a great song.
Aie! It was very hot today and I hear it will be the same tomorrow, maybe it will rain though. Work was extremely busy today, yikes! And I haven't talked to anyone yet today but hopefully soon. Scott, I'm really sorry to hear that about your job, that really bites and I want you to know that if you feel like breaking into Summer Music, torching the place with extreme prejudice, I'm there with ya!
soooooooooo hOoOoOot!! I'm completely envious of those who have AC!! Gawd, I'm sitting here in shorts (god only) shorts for crying out loud! Oh well, just means I'll be with "someone" who has AC, *wink wink*. Anyways peoples, Ciao and Later Days, oh and looking forward to friday party, that is, if* I go. (you know what * means) ;)
Tuesday, July 2, 2002
07:32 p.m.
Hey, Quick Shout out: I'd just like to say, that from what I've been told, Erin's boss is an idiot and I think she deserves a better job like mine, :)
I definately know that I hate being accused of something I haven't done, and it hurts to be called a thief, so here's to you Douglas: *flips the bird*, I say back off guy, its only five dollars, and from my personal view of how stupid and rude some tourists or locals can be when treating others in the service industry, that person probably misplaced their dumb money and didn't realize it, sooooo thats what I'd tell Zuby's......right after I torch the place! Mwhah hahah ahah ahah ha haha, ahem, 'cuse me. :)
Anywhos, work was really busy today, yay! And Erin and I are going to see Minority Report tonight, so I'm looking forward to that. Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, you people are great! Oh and to Devin and Alex: I know where you live, I know your weaknesses, so WATCH OUT, cuz Bean is on a revenge tangent.
Pool party tomorrow! Whoooo! I love swimming. Later DAys People. Ciao
Friday, June 28, 2002
08:04 p.m.
Wow, it seems like forever since I've written in here. My apoligies to any of you who are advent readers.
Well, its 3 days till my birthday, I'm sorta excited, the guys are going to go out for a drink, that will be nice. Tonight my family is coming over to celebrate my b-day, I get steak for dinna! Yeah!
I've spent the afternoon reviewing course descriptions because I'm going down to Western tomorrow to register for courses and meet profs. and such. Its hot outside, but the sun is very nice, I'm very much looking forward to this summer.
Last night Erin and I went out to celebrate our 3 month anniversary, it was great. She's supa wonderful!
Ah yes my friends, lets set out to make this a great summer to remember! It begins now! Well...sorta after the 27th, cuz we still gotta go back to school to see our exam marks, mah!! Restall is a cleverish evil man man! *Thats right, I said man man!* Oh well, I can go into exam review "ripped" from the previous night out for my b-day. Later days everyone!
Ciao
Sunday, June 23, 2002
03:46 p.m.
Hello.
Well, one down, 3 to go. Music exam I think went pretty well. I guess I'm an idiot in some respects, but oh well, we can't remember everything, right? Work was boring, again. I swear, I now jump for joy when there is work to do. The only thing worse then a busy day from hell, is a dead day, which is the longest shift you ever take.
Physics exam tomorrow, then I promised people we could go buy a cake and enjoy it. mmmmm, sounds good. Maybe it will be nice out tomorrow, and people can come out after lunch and eat cake and enjoy the afternoon.
Right now I'm feeling a good deal of nerves, and maybe a tad loneliness, *I haven't talked or seen anyone since I got home from work, not even family* Well, I'll go to sleep soon and then get up and face the last challenge of Creech, *bum-bah!*
Ciao my people, sleep well and God bless.
Thursday, June 13, 2002
10:54 p.m.
mmmmm, hooyah! I'm sitting here after working, having myself a nice cup of orange tea with a little honey, mmmm, helps the voice. Ooooo, I feel all warm and good inside.
Friday, June 7, 2002
08:55 p.m.
I want to cry right now, but the tears won't come.
What did I do, to feel so hurt?
That is known only by one.
I feel so numb...
Don't move
Don't talk out of time
Don't think
Don't worry everything's just fine
just fine
Don't grab
Don't clutch
Don't hope for too much
Don't breathe
Don't achieve
Don't grieve without leave
Don't check just balance on the fence
Don't answer
Don't ask
Don't try and make sense
Don't whisper
Don't talk
Don't run if you can walk
Don't cheat compete
Don't miss the one beat
Don't travel by train
Don't eat
Don't spill
Don't piss in the drain
Don't make a will
Don't fill out any forms
Don't compensate
Don't cower
Don't crawl
Don't come around late
Don't hover at the gate
Don't take it on board
Don't fall on your sword
Just play another chord
If you feel you're getting board I feel numb
I feel numb
Don't change your brand Too much is not enough
Don't listen to the band Gimme some more
Don't gape Gimme some more
Don't ape Of that stuff love
Don't change your shape Too much is not enough
Have another grape
Don't plead Too much is not enough
Don't bridle I feel numb
Don't shackle I feel numb
Don't grind Gimme what you got
Don't curve Gimme what I don't get
Don't swerve Gimme what you got
Don't lie, die, serve Too much is not enough
I feel numb
Don't theorize, realise, polarise,
Chance, dance, dismiss, apologise
I feel numb
Don't spy Gimme some more
Don't lie Gimme some more
Don't try Of that stuff love
Imply Gimme some more
Detain Too much is not enough
Explain
Start again I feel numb
Don't triumph
Don't coax
Don't cling
Don't hoax
Don't freak
Peak
Don't leak
Don't speak
I feel numb
Don't project I feel numb
Don't connect
Protect
Don't expect
Suggest
I feel numb
Don't project
Don't connect
Protect
Don't expect
Suggest
I feel numb
Don't struggle I feel numb
Don't jerk
Don't collar
Don't work
Don't wish
Don't fish
Don't teach
Don't reach
I feel numb
Don't borrow
Don't break
Don't fence
Don't steal
Don't pass
Don't press
Don't try
Don't feel
I feel numb
Don't touch
Don't dive
Don't suffer
Don't rhyme
Don't fantasize
Don't rise
Don't lie
I feel numb
Don't project
Don't connect
Protect
Don't expect
Suggest
I feel numb
Don't project
Don't connect
Protect
Don't expect
Suggest I feel numb
Thursday, June 6, 2002
02:49 p.m.
"Hallelujah" by Rufus Wainwright, is so fucking right at this moment. What power.
Wednesday, June 5, 2002
11:02 p.m.
...And the wander gazed into the sky,
stretching his hands towards the blue, he whispered softly,
"I am here, please let me be there."
And the sky opened up, and it began to rain...
Wednesday, June 5, 2002
08:29 p.m.
ah, I have this amazing musical piece that I wished that I could have played for symphonic band, it is truly incredible.
Tuesday, June 4, 2002
11:35 p.m.
Hahahahahaha, I laugh at how foolish things can be! hahaha.
Tuesday, June 4, 2002
11:33 p.m.
Oh, I took that test, and here were my results:
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
Tuesday, June 4, 2002
03:03 p.m.
The Probability of One's Existance
Ha, don't let the title confuse you. Today in physics we were discussing the probability of one's existance as they approach the speed of light. It was very interesting. Well I hope I haven't bored you with that, I just think, and am going to miss, all of the discussions we have in physics are so expansive and intriguing.
So, here I am in my band uniform, gotta pick up sister from school, drop her off and then go to work, for which I will have to get out of 30min earlier so I can barely make it to music night, whew, some of you got to be happy that your jobs are a little bit more flexible. Working for a corporation isn't all sunshine and smiles ya know!
Yeah, so I know whats going on lately, its not like I'm clueless and wouldn't be able to do something about it. I just wish that when this happens, people would clue me in, or at least talk to me, tell me why they're bummed out. I mean, when this happens I want more than ever to be there to make them feel better, especially since communication is very good, but I feel like my concern might be less than welcome. Well, at least thats the impression that I get. I said "hi, how are you doing?" today and got no response, so I dunno. Play it cool I guess, talk to people later? Just remember that something that happens in a day isn't completely linked to everything else and should be treated as so.
Anwyays people, hope all yous who say you're getting sick feel better, maybe if this weather was better, eh? Study for exams people, we just got a little more to go till summer, whooo!
Ciao
Tuesday, June 4, 2002
02:38 p.m.
Hey Everyone, this is just a quick entry.
Yeah, had the last algebra test today, went well I think. Tim came over after work and we talked about residence stuff for Western. Went uptown and got a large cappuccino, thats right! A LARGE CAPPUCCINO! It was GREAT! and now I'm pumped on caffine.
I WAS gonna call someone right now, and see if she wanted to study for bio, but appearently she wanted to study for BIO with someone else, so, here I am at home, meh. Should said person read this soon, call me!
Oh, and another thing, this is a message for all ma sicko-friends out there. Erin isn't the only one who could become a tad violent should the teasing continue, so watch out peoples! :)
*sigh*, sometimes I wish our group was a tad less immature sometimes. tsk tsk. (j/k guys, its sokay if ya wanna tease and pry, I don't mind...cuz I wouldn't spill the beans about anything anways, so ha! :)
I would only speak on it, if it was actually bothering other people. Anywhos, Ciao Pitaians.
Monday, June 3, 2002
09:36 p.m.
Hey Everyone, prom was great, music could have been a little better, but whats really important is the people I was with. Wow, when you think about it, prom is now over, the year is drawing close.
I'm concerned about something though. Apparently I told something to someone that I have no memory of saying. Neverless, I didn't ever saying anything like that and I want people to know that I DO like people, and that what I thought was not cool was just a rule of thumb in general. I hope things can be cool, cuz I would never say anything like that.
Yeah, so I'm looking forward to next weekend, it should be cool. Ack, 3 tests this week, oh well, whatever happens.
Anyways, I'm multitasking right now, and I'd like to turn my attention solely to something right now, so ciao peoples.
Till the next day...
Sunday, June 2, 2002
10:49 p.m.
Hi everyone! Well I'm beginning to think that work is a big waste of time. All the work there was to do was done by 5, so for 3 hours me and Greg got to call branches in BC. and ask what their business hours are, whooo! Yep, I really don't feel right about being paid to just sit in a chair and waste time, I sure hope work picks up soon, I'm by no means a workoholic, but I like to be productive.
Well, almost everything is ready for prom, just gotta get some drinks for later. I'm very exciting about tomorrow, I think it is going to be great and people are going to look damn damn damn fine! Whew, so good...
Don't worry Dave, I do like writing in my pita so you have something to read, but somedays its the last thing on the list, but hey, I'll try. Nobody seems to be on tonight, so maybe I'll get some extra rest so that I'm fully-charged for tomorrow night! yah! Hey, one last thing, people who I sent a quiz to: I rarely make them, so take it, I wanna see how you do. Anyways, ~Shorah aun diun~ everyone.
Ciao
Thursday, May 30, 2002
09:51 p.m.
New Entry.
Monday, May 27, 2002
11:20 p.m.
